The piece of paper was waiting for me. I know that now. Hidden in a book, it waited for the right time. I don’t remember why I picked up the book – or rather why I picked that particular book. It was the paper – it bided it’s time. Not the paper really, but what was written on it.
Years ago I had created a conflict resolution clearing based on an example shared with me by a workshop teacher. I tried it on myself and others but it never seemed to work. The only copy I had was printed on a ½ sheet of paper used as a bookmark in a book that called to me.
Something has changed for me recently. Not really sure what. I feel ….different. The world feels different. Looking at what was written on the paper I had a knowing that this time it would work.
I was in conflict with a workmate. As much as I tried I did not like her. I had no logical reason not to like her. She was kind and nice but gaaaaa….got on my last nerve. I felt like crap when I treated her like crap or thought crappy of her but it was like I could not help it.
Conflict? You bet!
What I love about the conflict clearing exercise is that I did not have to do anything to or for her. I was the one with the conflict and crappy feelings. It was my problem. I also loved that I did not have to dig to find the source of the conflict. Didn’t need to know if it was karma or past/parallel life or if she killed me in one life or stole my husband/wife. I did not need to know any of that. I just knew I had conflict and was ready to resolve it.
So I got to work. Not work really – it was play. I love doing my “play” before bedtime so that the energies can settle in while I sleep. I played, I felt a subtle shift, then I went to sleep. End of story.
The next morning I awoke as usual but I had an urge to text my workmate – at 0700. I knew she was up as she is typically at work at that time. No big deal there – except I NEVER text her from home unless I am calling off work. NEVER! But the feeling/desire to text her was very, very strong. I walked towards my phone a couple times, walked away shaking my head thinking “WTF? Why is this so important to do?” Then finally:
0709: “Don’t know how u do it woman. I’m barely out of bed :). C U later 4 meeting.”
0712: “Good morning Courtni. LOL. Ok sounds good.”
Simple exchange right? No big deal.
In the shower it hit me that my bizarre need/desire/yearning to text her came from the conflict clearing I had done the night before. I needed to see, in the most unusual way, that what I had done worked. I had NO MORE CONFLICT with her. None. Zilch. Nada. Something shifted within 9 hours – 8 of which I had been asleep!
The next day at the meeting (remote teleconference) we spent some time chatting. The icky energy I had felt for a year was gone. Woo Hoo!
With that success under my belt I got home and made a list of any conflict I could possibly have with anyone, anything, and any concept and used the conflict resolution clearing exercise on all of them. I had tears, goose bumps, warmth, and felt profound peace after some of the clearings but I haven’t yet noticed anything externally as clear as the shift with my workmate.
I know it worked as I have awesome proof in a great relationship with my workmate – a relationship that was a struggle for a year but which was changed overnight.
I am keeping my eyes, heart, and arms open.